maybe the one he should fight the most is himself
There are really, really nice Anons flooding inbox, you are all too kind, the messages mean so much, could never thank you enough for the wonderful things you all say. This is why want to get better as soon as possible, so that can do things to say thank you for all the encouraging things that people say and do to help get through rough times. Having people that have stuck for so long through so many hard times means the world and want to show how grateful am for it, want to be able to say thank you for putting faith in that will get better one day and not let that feel misplaced.
Bbbbhhhhh, thank you. That’s so sweet for you to send, it makes me feel happier and calmer to think if that’s true. Will keep hold of those ideas to stop the sadness from creeping back and taking away all the good feelings that came back over the past couple of days.
Thank you, that means a lot. Will do so, will try not to let everything get on top of and keep trying to feel better.
It’s okay. They didn’t really last long. Wore out pretty quickly and headache getting worse probably stopped them, but the feeling is still there. Gomen, I’m a butt, hopefully, it’ll stop soon and can get self motivated enough to finished off assignment.
Thank you—- Headache did come back quite strong.
Nnnnn I was hoping you wouldn’t see it…If you’re talking about what I think you are…
Hm. Was probably going to end up finding it eventually. Wanted to cry outright and straight away and the only reason haven’t yet is because exhausted. Probably will the instant it can happen, can feel it coming so… Feels kind of wrong to not be crying over it immediately.
Something saw while backlogging. It hit hard and things that are still kind of raw. It’s upsetting and want to cry or throw up, the sick feeling gets stronger the more thinking about it, but it’s not something can or should just ignore.
It’s happening all over again. Just like the last time. How to stop it? Don’t want this. Never did, never would. It hurts. It hurts so much to even think about it. Don’t know what to do. Just don’t and it’s so hard to feel that helpless. Feel sick. Really sick.
Okay, okay—- Late, but was focused on work while had the feeling to be able to do it. Last time, was grouchy and frustrated, but want to do it right this time.
It’s just… this divide is only hurting everyone, no-one can feel anything good about it. Fanguard is a small fandom and ever since coming in, people have been nothing short of wonderful and understanding and everyone accepts things, even if opinions are different. Some people have certain ships, some people aren’t that fond of others, but no-one ever attacked anyone over that. Would like to think that the same could be for Link Joker. It’s not a real life threat, except for those who like to exaggerate and act as though it is.
But, it’s only going to hurt the fandom if this carries on. People have been hurt and they will again if it continues. Everyone knows that the year as a whole has been very rough, and that, personally, Link Joker-hen has been so, very difficult to cope with. Never wanted Kai-kun Reversed, never wanted anything of what has happened, but it has. There’s nothing that will change that, no amount of wishing and it became a matter of waiting. And we’re almost there. We should be all getting excited over the climax coming up - for those who like Link Joker to get to see what its biggest, baddest units will be, and those who don’t will get to see its presumed fall, get Kai-kun back and all the goodness been waiting for.
But even with all that, never wanted to detract from people enjoying it; they’re allowed. People should be able to feel as though they can like Link Joker’s Clan as much as someone liking Royal Paladins or Aqua Force or Kagero. Link Joker as a Clan are really no different. Maybe in the anime, yes, but as cards, they’re really just cards, they won’t hurt anyone. The only thing hurting people is those ideas that they will and threatening a split in the fandom.
But why is this matter tearing everyone up? Maybe, for everyone, the season has been difficult. People have been torn over things and upset a lot, it spilled into roleplay, but please, don’t let it divide everyone. Please, don’t force your opinions onto them just because you think it’s a real threat, when it’s not. People won’t be able to snap back. This isn’t about blaming someone, it’s just wanting things to be alright, not for everyone to be torn up over this. Cardfight!! Vanguard is something so very important to me and seeing it being taken like this and hurting people is so hard to see, it hurts a lot.
Can we please go back to being one big happy group and enjoying things, even if they’re hard? To support each other when the series becomes hard to watch and just having fun when it’s easier? Fanguard is very important to me and seeing it suffer in such a way is really hard to take. Everyone has been so wonderful in helping get through a difficult year and pushing through Link Joker-hen when it’s been so very hard to watch, don’t want it to fall apart because of this. It’s hard to see everyone getting angry over this; especially because the fandom is so small. Can we all just accept different feelings and opinions like normal, be friends and not hurt each other like this, so people can not be afraid to like or roleplay Link Joker, please? Pretty please?
halfway thru my cereal
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halfway thru my coffee
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Halfway thru my milk
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